I don't know what this is anymore.

This thing, this messed up thing that's going on between us. I don't know what this is anymore. I was mighty fine before you and your gorgeous self had to come along and mess everything up. Then things grew between us. I don't know if it was love, or if it was hate or if it was indifference. All I know is I get butterflies in my tummy right before we usually see each other. Every time I see you my heart stops for a few seconds. My heart tells me I should hate you and never even look at you again. My mind tells me that we should cut ties before anything else happens. So which one should I listen to? I don't know what to do anymore. Being with you is the most exhausting thing I've ever done. What should I do?